I’ve not blogged on my thoughts in some time, been very inspired to write poems as of late. But today I have had something come to the surface I feel poetry would not do justice. I’m deeply grateful for this understanding today, as it has been slowly coming into my awareness.
Many times in life, we come to a place where we find ourselves hurting; many believe it’s a choice. It is. But why would we chose such a thing? Is pain productive? Does it mean we punish ourselves? No, we are not punishing ourselves. There is a saying that goes, “there is a fine live between love and hate.” A bit extreme, but it does have meaning.
When you think of the extent we love someone, a friend, a sister, a lover, you can also remember times when they have hurt you deeply. For we must love deeply and unarmed to be hurt the same. But I ask of you to think of how this could help your soul, and perhaps it will also help you to learn and see how forgiving can come to you with an open heart and compassion.
Before we came to this existence, we chose certain experiences we needed to heal from. To heal karma and learn to grow. We never stop expanding, because we are light. Light never ends. When we chose to come here, we also chose other souls we love and trust beyond words to help us learn these lessons. They too understood their lesson fit perfectly with ours.
Think of this, who is one person in your life right now, that you trust with your life? Someone you know that would make choices for you that would help you the most if you could not for yourself? Now, think of trusting this person to tell you they had to leave a bit from town, but asked you to please believe them that not telling you why was best. could you trust them? I think you would.
This is the same of those who hurt us deeply in this life. before we came here, they loved us and we loved them with love one cannot imagine in earthly terms. We trusted them that in this love they would be the person to teach us such a lesson as pain and suffering from another we love hurting us.
This soul who we made a pact with, is being selfless by taking on karma for us to heal. Yes, it sounds hard to understand and maybe hard to swallow, but please bear with me.
Imagine yourself looking into the eyes of your loved one and they ask you to please help them, they have their legs trapped under a car. If they do not get out they will die. The only way is to cut off their legs. (This is graphic and I apologize, but it needs to be to give the power of what I am saying.) Both of you know it will hurt beyond words, but after the pain is over, the life will be saved. The will of life is stronger and the selfless act you are going to do by cutting them free, knowing you are hurting them so, is but a grace from the light. You take a deep breath and set aside their screams and set them free. The person might not know what it took in this lifetime for you to love them that much you would do that to for them.
This is the same for those who hurt us deeply and move out of our lives or have made a mistake that made us suffer inside. This is why forgiveness is so important for both souls. We need to remember that this life is just a small fraction of who we are and we understand small bits of why we are here. In the long run, like with the car and legs, we must understand that the pain is for healing and the love we will find again when we leave this life in the soul who shared our pain with us. Do not hold onto the pain, do not hold onto the anger and suffering. Forgive and know that though you might not understand fully why you needed the lesson of pain from this person, that if you make the right choices with the experience and KNOW, this is a healing chance to grow, you will both shine and go back to the source of that profound trusting love before you came here.
This is the beauty of humanity, that we can really find the understanding, if we learn to view life from a perfect circle and see all the way around.
Love and light to all!