It Was Always Enough (Dear Mom And Dad)

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It was so cold outside, I remember.
Dad was late from work, in mid December.
You spent all afternoon making the soup,
My sister and I were off in our rooms.
You called us for dinner as Dad walked in,
I sat at the table, making ungrateful comments.
Complaining and whining, the meal was; “cheap”,
How could we be filled on broth and grilled cheese?
I got up and left, never touching my plate,
Had I turned back around, I would’ve seen you never ate.

Years have now passed and I’m now a Mother;
Spent nights up late working for the bread and the butter.
Tired some evenings, aching to the bone,
Creating a meal for the children… alone.
Adding a little of this, a pinch of that,
Pulling a feast from out of my hat.
Telling myself, this is healthy and filling;

Then the children won’t eat it, said it’s “gross” or unappealing.
I find myself thinking of that night long ago,
What I said to my parents, now said by my own.
A lesson that took years to come back around,
Made me pick up the phone and share what I found.

Dear Mom and Dad, as a child I did not see;
You filled my dish, as yours went empty.
You sacrificed,
With love and grace,
I need to tell you, before it’s too late.
I know what it’s like now, I’ve walked in your shoes,
I ask your forgiveness, now I know the truth.

Love,
A VERY grateful daughter.

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Alone

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Vast is the difference between alone and lonely.

Everyone has their story;

A long day at work, a patience testing trip,

A body tired from illness, a tragic message, a lost friendship, a relationship ended.

So you walk for hours as thoughts seem relentless.

We can’t escape it, not ready to embrace it;

So we just sit.

Numb and silent, observing, breathing and surrendered.

It’s a surreal magic, in the middle of all that’s tragic – comes the answer.

There is call to be alone, just you and your heart, quiet in the moment.

Here we are not lonely, no need for company;

The connection is revealing, as we begin healing, just us and the sea.

The waves pull us far from the sentient mind,

Takes us beyond the situation, lets our emotions unwind.

We start to notice the glistening of the water, the way the sand allows our feet to dig deep – lets our eyes wander.

We can now feel the winds whipping salted air across our faces, then you smile;

It’s these sacred spaces, they come at just the right time.

This is reaching of high tide, with arms open wide… you spin as high as the seagulls fly;

Why?

Because we all know, that being alone is needed sometimes.

Because we can touch the inner child.

Because everything that brought us right here, keeps our dreams alive.

Give your soul the freedom – take a moment to celebrate your life.

 

Refraction Of Light

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What enchants the eyes, a glistening sky?

What entrances the mind; a whisper from the wise?

What reflects the light; a heart that never dies.

Can you reach the vastness; would you leave all ideals behind?

The universe is so diverse,  we know this deep inside.

We are as infinite as we are inspired.

There is no velocity in  stagnant sight .

It’s simple subtraction, takes just a fraction;

Love is an action,  we are sublime.

Trust is the protractor, truth  is the journey,  the heart is the refraction of  light.

ANGELS

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In the serendipity, in the tears;
In the corner of your eye, in the center of your fear.
In the broken pieces of your heart, you surrendered in the dark;
There is a familiar voice – the slightest touch.
In the most immaculate dream.
Somehow you made it, through a crash at high speed.
A strong intuition gave a premonition, you can’t explain it, but you always listen.
A warm glow, the scent of a rose, a vision of home.
A strong energy,
An epiphany.
A guided journey, a call of service, inspirational beauty.
Angels sing and Angels weep.
In their hearts are our prayers they keep.
Right beside us, beyond perception – Angels resonate and we are protected.

Melt Within The Winds

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In the beatitudes of your heart;
In the benediction from afar;
In the silence of your presence,
I see the star.
Pouring down from the connotations;
I can touch your soft vibration.
In the vastness,
Beyond imagination;
When your creations;
Need inspiration,
You meet me here.
As your life begins to unwind;
When expectation has jaded your mind;
Slip under the surface for a time.
What is unsaid,
What is sublime in bated breath;
But I know your Spirit.
Come around again,
My friend,
We shall melt within the winds.

The Story Of The Ice, Fire And Winds

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Ancient and sentimental secrets fell from the sky one day;
He was standing on the open plains,
The earth began to heave and sway.
With all his strength – his hands raised;
He sang to the Elders a Prayer of Spirit.
Across the great divide, the Winds came.
Howling, rushing, encasing and sovereign.
He knelt in the most powerful glory, waiting for the answer to be.
The Winds took the music of his voice to the clouds;
The Keepers mixed his wishes with water and fire.
Thunders echoed loud.
All the mountains came rolling down;
Then time froze…
Ice crackled and broke in the aether;
The winds carved a space in his wonder,
The fire pulled him under.
The ice broke his heart;
Trust reformed it again.
He was a new man.
He was created of the elements.
Now a watcher of the land,
He took her hand – and showed her the way…

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The Wave

Augsunset18th2012 015Slowly as the day winds in,
As stillness reflects a serene breath,
The life unwinds and surrenders.

As the eyes drift, the mind and dream eclipse.
In this moment, there is a glimpse;
It pulls on sentiment, it unveils what was buried.
A soul kiss, whispers… we are united.
Waves bring change, never separate.
Waves fill space with moments…
Ripples reach, experience’s teach;
But free will remains.
Know this;
We are given the chance, to keep a balance;
To seek forgiveness, to fill a promise,
To trust the process.
Until we meet again,
In the waves of Heaven.

Trusting The Forgiveness Of Pain

I’ve not blogged on my thoughts in some time, been very inspired to write poems as of late. But today I have had something come to the surface I feel poetry would not do justice. I’m deeply grateful for this understanding today, as it has been slowly coming into my awareness.

Many times in life, we come to a place where we find ourselves hurting; many believe it’s a choice. It is. But why would we chose such a thing? Is pain productive? Does it mean we punish ourselves? No, we are not punishing ourselves. There is a saying that goes, “there is a fine live between love and hate.” A bit extreme, but it does have meaning.

When you think of the extent we love someone, a friend, a sister, a lover, you can also remember times when they have hurt you deeply. For we must love deeply and unarmed to be hurt the same. But I ask of you to think of how this could help your soul, and perhaps it will also help you to learn and see how forgiving can come to you with an open heart and compassion.

Before we came to this existence, we chose certain experiences we needed to heal from. To heal karma and learn to grow. We never stop expanding, because we are light. Light never ends. When we chose to come here, we also chose other souls we love and trust beyond words to help us learn these lessons. They too understood their lesson fit perfectly with ours.

Think of this, who is one person in your life right now, that you trust with your life? Someone you know that would make choices for you that would help you the most if you could not for yourself? Now, think of trusting this person to tell you they had to leave a bit from town, but asked you to please believe them that not telling you why was best. could you trust them? I think you would.

This is the same of those who hurt us deeply in this life. before we came here, they loved us and we loved them with love one cannot imagine in earthly terms. We trusted them that in this love they would be the person to teach us such a lesson as pain and suffering from another we love hurting us.

This soul who we made a pact with, is being selfless by taking on karma for us to heal. Yes, it sounds hard to understand and maybe hard to swallow, but please bear with me.

Imagine yourself looking into the eyes of your loved one and they ask you to please help them, they have their legs trapped under a car. If they do not get out they will die. The only way is to cut off their legs. (This is graphic and I apologize, but it needs to be to give the power of what I am saying.) Both of you know it will hurt beyond words, but after the pain is over, the life will be saved. The will of life is stronger and the selfless act you are going to do by cutting them free, knowing you are hurting them so, is but a grace from the light. You take a deep breath and set aside their screams and set them free. The person might not know what it took in this lifetime for you to love them that much you would do that to for them.

This is the same for those who hurt us deeply and move out of our lives or have made a mistake that made us suffer inside. This is why forgiveness is so important for both souls. We need to remember that this life is just a small fraction of who we are and we understand small bits of why we are here. In the long run, like with the car and legs, we must understand that the pain is for healing and the love we will find again when we leave this life in the soul who shared our pain with us. Do not hold onto the pain, do not hold onto the anger and suffering. Forgive and know that though you might not understand fully why you needed the lesson of pain from this person, that if you make the right choices with the experience and KNOW, this is a healing chance to grow, you will both shine and go back to the source of that profound trusting love before you came here.

This is the beauty of humanity, that we can really find the understanding, if we learn to view life from a perfect circle and see all the way around.

Love and light to all!

Change

How would you make a change, if you knew why you were here?

Once; just a idea – you’re now experience, you are the essence of being!

What if your life, was created as a lesson; not for selfish purpose – but to expand consciousness.

To deeply feel, How would you deal with it?

What if you started to remember the lives before; how you’ve already evolved – would you close the door?

Would you search for more?

How would you use your wisdom;  if you expanded your soul, would you see it as a whole – would your ego let go?

Can you expand your vision; see others a prism -we are not so different.

Some are not awake; but what would it take, to grow from each mistake?

We must heal the soul.

Listen to the voice; the music of your breath, vibrations and sensations – tune your mind to it.

Free your chains of karma, focus on your chakras.

The universe is listening; the eyes of truth upon us.

Love is the key to unity; it’s why we are and always will be…

Live without fear, believe in your dreams, reach out to others, because life IS change.

Nothing stays the same, work through your pain.

See all of the angles to master your fate.

Let your world dilate.

bring nature in, cause we are in everything. Can you understand – we never end.

The choices begin with YOU…

Look in my eyes, see your reflection; take hold of my hand, hope is perfection.

Come and run, under the sun – sing and create, lets open the gates for others to shine!

This is the time, make it the time, this is the LIFE we will soar.

The 7 Stages Of Deception

You can keep your secret signs, you can keep your blessed wine;

You can keep your holy lair, cause you won’t find me kneeling there.

You can keep your timless vows, your penitence and holy ground;

Call me a sinner when no ones around; I’m in no despair.

You can tell me all I’ll miss, because nature is  my bliss.

Say my cross is heavy to bare, that I’ll rot in hell for not speaking your prayer.

But now I’m aware, of deception there.

Drink from your goblets of rubies and gold, while the hungry are watching in the dark and the cold.

But what do they know?

Where are your humble? Where are your meek? I’ve read the pages in the book you speak.

Stand in your robes of trinity lost, passing the basket, cause the sermon will cost you.

I read between the lines, I’ve opened my eyes.

Creation is unfolding inside my mind. I hear her call, I am filled with her peace.

No steeple of stone will bring me home. I’ve been to that side, it’s stages of time.

It’s all in rewind, then halos of light, vibrations of white and luminous blue.

There is no devil coming for you.

That’s all control, fear of unknown.

All at once, you are everything, a timeless being, a center a median. You expand and contract, the it pulls you back;

To a point of stillness. You hear your purpose, you see your entrance.

But the vortex is strong and you can hear their song, you want to stay, but you breathe again.

Was this heaven? Was this in between?

How come the church won’t answer me?

My God does not scream in agony, he is in me. He is not weeping.

While you are still sleeping, I found my way.

Reine’

Starving Artist

Here I sit,
On a park bench.
In the city of circumstance,
Feeding pigeons of poverty,
Dreaming, of a soft cover harlequin romance.
Watching the passers by,
Making up stories for their lives.
I laugh to myself,
As I wonder, how I seem to someone else.
A month ago today,
I took a train to a better life,
And I worked to survive.
Music, taking a space on the back shelf of my mind.
Scraps of paper fill my pockets,
Ideas in rhyme.
They’re scattered, but they’re mine.
I look at some faces here,
And you can see the years,
What did they leave behind,
To feast in the city of lights?
Their eyes say they tried,
A cup of coffee, tells a story here.
It’s a night out.
It feeds my imagination.
Here on my park bench,
I can still smile,
Because the vibes are strong yet,
And I’ve just arrived.
 
Reine’

Live In The Sun (your perfect truth)

Deep golden warmth, surrounding your dream of life;

The solar star of fire and birth, whispers truth.

Under the guide of light you thrive, but do not live a lie.

For the heavens know, your secrets flow from the waves of energy.

You seek to be free, but can you not see? The illumination of everything you ought to be, is buried deep.

Let the rivers of eternity seep into your being. Why are you so afraid? A thought is all it takes, to make it so.

Years will pass, and the soul holds on to the glow. You’ve always known, but fear had a hold.

Do not waste this life, such a gift of time, each moment you could own.

Travel your path, but love is like sand –  it slips through the hands,

Though it never ends.

Many come to be for us, as we chose before we came, to experience love in many forms,

Never felt in vain.

But created in perfection, ideal in our reflection, is the twin of flames.

The vibrations are the same. The pull is truth, life stands still.

Nature bows and the universe sings, when these human beings meet.

The light of creation begins to pulsate,  the solar warmth then resonates.

In this space, water becomes air, and the galaxy pours down.

This love is the musical axis to the mystery of everything.

 

 

For all those who do not believe in love, these words I write are what I believe. So many have this fear, that they settle for less. We are not created to just exist. We have purpose, so does true love. If you spend your gift of life, with guilt and duty to another, or you feel that true love is work, ’tis not so. Love is not work; life and healing your karma is. The greatest work is from within. True love helps you soar, it creates a beautiful light that always opens doors. True love goes beyond give and take. It inspires and makes you fly. Many do not understand, that love is not just something you feel over time, love is how you came here, how you stay here, who you are. Live your perfect truth, and believe, never give up.

Polarity Of Truth

What bitter pill did you swallow?
What makes a heart so hollow?
What did you hope to achieve?
Is this how you want to live?

Not all people are the same.
Direct the words, where the angers to blame.
You’re only destroying yourself,
Loathing will just pin you down.
There will always be fear before trust,
But, to live in your past and disgust,
Is imprisoning your soul.

We were all meant to grow.
Learn from mistakes as a whole.
This is the reality of life,
We hear, not always what we like.
But you have to understand,
And respect every gentile hand,
That reaches out.

Harmony, is what it’s all about.
You can disagree with me,
Yet, exist peacefully in the same space.
Pride, can only save face for awhile.
So open up your mind and smile,
Understand another view,
And remember,
The polarity of truth.

Jewel Mind

We are all born into bondage of the senses
We meditate, to release our essence
Imagination gets us high
A solitary breath, keeps us grounded
Reach for the infinite
Let the world surround us

In the core, we are one
Peaceful and humble
Eyes like azure, porcelain skies
Your jewel mind, serene
Your smile is the color of glass
Clear as it shines
Crystallize these images
And break the ties
Free your senses
Let love be blind

Gravity (The Harmonics Of Love)

We are sentient beings, the gravity of survival  keeps our polarity

Our souls magnetic harmony is love,  it’s bigger then we can believe

The golden numbers of perfection, the spiral of creation

Bathes us like the wind, take it all in

Let your vision soar, let your mind explore and pulse with energy

Sensual creature, touch the earth, pour from the heavens, bring us new birth

Hands of fire, hands of faith, still my center, as I create.

Ancient cities under the sun, we are one, from land to sea

No man can measure infinity.

We are here to learn, though karma can burn, we must see

What comes to the surface, is meant to cure us,

This is the purpose of humanity

Once awakened, never forsaken your beauty.

Silver light and indigo dreams, chakras and mantras clear negativity

Do not live in fear, for every tear, we will find our innocence

Our entrye to eternity

Convergence Of Sacred Spheres (Thank you)

In the stillness of this moment,  just before breath becomes energy;

You infuse me.

From earth to sky, your sphere of light fills my eyes.

Like the sacred spiral of perfection, the music of your creation is electric.

Convergence of soul and eternity, dreams and reality, this is what you mean to me.

Miles from my shore, the ocean keeps no secrets as it carries the connections of peace.

Deep in my sleep,  the spheres surround me, their vibrations feed me.

Like a waterfall of understanding,  this blends inside,

Their colors of wisdom rise, connections increase.

Thank you for this beauty, for listening and whispering truth.

For the element of you, the messages came through; now I am free.

 

Reine’

High Expectations (lyrics in progress)

I don’t know, how I appear to ya,

Do I meet, with your criteria?

When you look at your reflection, do you see what you’re expecting?

Do you feel the reality, all the things you want to be?

You know I see your truth, all the shame is showing through.

If you live with high expectations, negative sensations are your conformations,

Pick  me apart, right from the start, have you lost your heart, when it comes to humanity?

So what you’ve got the claim to fame, everyone wants you and knows your name.

But in those hours of idle thought, can you remember, what you were taught?

Never bite the hands that feed, live in love,  let go of greed.

Give in to the ego, you’ll live in the shadows, why be so shallow, then your world is an echo.

If  you live with high expectations, negative sensations are all your creations.

If you open ,your mind to the truth, we will see you shine, from the other side.

Find it in me and you’ll see it in you. Let all your expectations go, then you will know, You’ve finally arrived.